Spring bloom, autumn leaves, winter snow, and now is summer solstice
I sometimes asks myself, what do I want to do, what can I do, but the next moment, i just forget, because all my happiness and dreams all came from one source, when a baby is born, his skin and bones are brittle, but his fist are closed tight, even thought his teeth are not complete, but his voice is clear, but compared to him, i can't do that, all things are like the moon on the surface of the lake, throw one rock in, all of it are gone, when I was alive, i can not see my inner thoughts, I know all my knowledge came from studying from others, method of happiness, reasons to be negative, including myself, are defined by fate in the eye of others, I slowly forget that from birth to death is not only about living, experiencing emotions that are already known, walking down a road that has been walked many times.
Death came quick, perhaps its the next second, I really want to known what I am, who I am. My purpose, is not the temporary happiness and sadness from entertainment and work, but my inner self, what its saying, in my short life, I live to find, learn about the truth behind all the changes, study the forgotten truth, knowing what is the true wisdom and not using smartness expressing the world, including everyone, before I die, i want to return being pure, and then not fearing nor escaping anything, with bravery, action, accepting, attitude, peaceful interaction, spreading it to everyone, a reason to live pain-free, and not because of pain to understand happiness, because happiness wont come directly, repeatedly over and over again in emotion. To become an Enlightened one, in his life time, let oneself's heart become the moon in the pond, any immediate events, not knowing your emotions, careless about life and death, even if death comes the next second, able to leave your life behind, leave the flower of life, the power of tranquility.
this is what I want to do before I die, a cherry tree, a calm person.